Pet Peeves

i have alot of these.....mainly about people.  I'm not what I like to call a fair weather friend, NOT.  Either I am your friend or I'm not. Point Blank.  I'm not sure where or when this happened to be so black or white but it is.  Maybe its with age, but I have no time to waste on you if your just gonna be around for a little while or when I'm useful for you..  I'm in for the long hall.  And I sure as hell am not a friend only when you need something from me.  I swear it will get you NOWHERE with me. If i haven't heard from you in a while and then all of a sudden i hear from you and you need something....probably not going to happen. I have been burned too many times like this.  I guess I've become this way since Alyssa. I mean I'm too busy with taking care of her, the house, and my job to worry about people that really arent going to be there for me.  I use to be the person that i felt would drop everything for you if you needed me. But when I really need you and you arent there....well thats when you get on my list.

Also, I have a problem with not giving credit when credit is do.  If I got an awesome recipe from you I will not claim it as my own.  If I get a crafty idea from you, I will not claim it as my own.  I'm not a good cook so if I give you a recipe, it has come from somewhere else.  I dont just walk into a kitchen and make magic happen. Not me, not ever.  And thanks to Pinterest I have been able to be a little crafty for Alyssa and my niece.  But I never claim to have made it up myself.  Not my nature.  And it really does bother me when you take credit for something I did or I gave you.  It really does.

Off my box now.......

Life savers....

and when i say life savers.....these products saved.my.life :)

First and foremost....the swaddleme blanket...best thing since sliced bread.  Alyssa had zero control of her arms. she would be sleeping and the next thing you know shes crying becuase she hit herself in the face.  She lived in this thing for the first month or so.  But always slept in it. Until she starting rolling over in her sleep (4 months).



Alyssa and I didnt mesh real well when it came to breastfeeding... so me and medela became BFF's.  Her and I didnt go anywhere without each other....literally stuck at the hip...... or boobs....however you wanna take it :). I bought a different pump before I had Alysssa but we(the first pump and i) were like oil and water so I ended up buying this baby too.  yep thats right i literally spent about 500.00 on breastpumps.....ugh




Gripe water....oh how i love thee....great great great product.  Easy to measure.... Alyssa loved and it was great for the first couple of months when the babies dont really have the muscles to push out the gas! 




My first years sound machine, OMG this thing is great!  It has a setting for a "heartbeat".  Alyssa loves this thing, or maybe i do cause i can hear it through her monitor but all the same.  LOVE THIS!  Up until Alyssa was 8 weeks or so, she would only sleep on my chest....that was until i found this bad boy! sweet mother i was in heaven.



Fisher-Price My Little Lamb

WHAT? WHERE? WHEN? HOW?

What on earth have i been doing?  Chasing after my adorable little daughter that looks just like her daddy.
Where have i been?  Between sanity and pulling my hair out.....
When did my days consist of all this craziness?  The minute i had Alyssa.  Life hasnt been the same since.
How do i plan to change things?  Im not ... I wouldnt trade it for the world.

Everyone tells you when your pregnant that your life will never be the same.  And you just smile and say "Oh i know" but in reality YOU HAVE NO IDEA.  People will tell you to take the last few weeks and do nothing but relax.  YOU SHOULD!! every second you get....sit on your ass and relax, because after the baby gets here, at first you will be like oh this isnt bad~getting up every two hours to feed your child, change the diaper, get all swaddled back.  but after about a week your tired, i mean so tired you cant even remember the last time your peed.  let alone drank something....eating...whats that? Everyone will give you advice about what diapers to use, breastfeed/formula, when they should do this, when you should start that, but the best advice i can give is that you have to do what you feel is right.  No one else is the mother of your child, it has to be your decision and yours alone.  You have to become confident in the decisions you make and if it doesnt turn out exactly how you planned/though it would. IT WILL BE OK. really it will.

Alyssa has already started walking....and im not saying that she takes a few steps...that was like a month ago....she is on the move people....full force.....on the move.  She finally got 2 teeth on the bottom(9months) and is full of laughter and sometimes tears....its like night and day some days....she can be crying and then all of a sudden she starts laughing....its  bizarre :) but i love that sweet girl more than words can say.

im gonna write a post on what saved my life the first few months of alyssa being here.....its gonna be a good one....and when i say it saved my life....no joke...saved!!!

BACK TO WORK :(

well its back to work for me...its been a great 9 weeks off with my doll but the time has come for reality to set in....im a working mom, as nice at it would be to stay at home with her, j & i decided it would be best for both parties involved for her to go to daycare and me to work.  She needs to socialize with other kids...get germs....most of all not be attached to me.  I think its important for all of the above.  So with that said...i started back to work yesterday. Yes i cried when i dropped her off at daycare, but not until i got in the car. 

But i do have a  good friend that went by to visit her on her lunch break and Alyssa was just smiling and happy as can be. I was too excited to get the text saying she was doing great!  With that you better believe your bottom dollar that once 5:00 hit i was out the door and making my 45 minute drive home to see my little angel.  You see J picks her up becuase they close at 5:30 and seeing that i wont get there til 5:45, that just doesnt work, so J is at home with her for a good little while before i come home.  I think its great because they have their own time together and then i have mine as well! 

Alyssa had her 8 week shots on friday (she's technicially 9 weeks) and i wasnt a fan...neither was she...we cried just the same amount it was terrible.  Something about having a child really has made me such a softy. 

here are her stats
weight: 9.9 lbs - a little below 25 %
height 22 1/4 - 50%

she is laughing and smiling at both of us and cooing like crazy!  We love her to pieces!

the birth story

lets start with the wednesday before she was born...

i had my dr's appt and i was only at a 1.  being 39 weeks pregnant...i was quite disappointed/exhausted/and so over being pregnant.  With this all being said my dr told me that if i didnt have her by monday i would go in to be checked again and then go over to labor and delivery to be induced. Dr prescribed me to ambien so i could get some major rest and informed me to only work half days.  i was overjoyed with happiness that there was a light at the end of the tunnel. I called jeremy and my parents and told everyone that she would be here no later than tuesday!  YAY!!

so i immediately go get my ambien filled and let me tell you...that stuff is a mircale drug because i have NEVER slept soo good in my life! :) 

The weekend comes and i am getting my house ready for visitors for the next week.  Here i am cleaning my house and taking Jeremy trash and as i am in the garage....my water breaks...at 1:09....i had  a moment of freakin out....and instructed J to go get me a towel...this stuff just keep coming and coming...so i decided sitting on the commode while J got everything together was the best idea.  he called my parents and i called my sister! J got the car packed and off to the hospital we go.

I only had a couple of contractions on the way to hospital.  they werent that bad then.  The hospital was 45 minutes away.  we made it to the hospital.  with a towel in between my legs the nurses obiviously knew why i was there.  so i get all checked it and settled into my room and all hooked up to the 100 things they observe.  by this time i was having contractions. they checked to see how far i had progressed and i was at a 1 and 90% efaced. 

a couple of hours passed by and the contractions got stronger and stronger so the dr came in and checked me and i was at a 3 so he told me i could go ahead with my epidural.  by 5:45 i had my epidural and i was feeling much better!  those things are heaven let me tell you because contractions are no joke.

a few more hours passed and i was at an 8.5/9cm and 100%.  almost go time!

at nine i was at a 10 and it was go time!  they got me all prepped up and ready to push.  a 9:41 Alyssa arrived. and score 9/10.  She was healthy as can be and weighed 5lbs 14oz.  my little bitty girl finally arrived after 39 weeks of being pregnant.  it was surreal. and ever since its been a joy.

so here we are...

at 35 weeks...feeling huge and uncomfortable....with this little being inside of me currently putting her knee in my belly button.  I am very happy to being having this precious child of mine, but you see there is a thing that happens when your pregnant....you have ZERO immune system.....like notta....nothing! 

well on April 1 i was hanging out with some friends and there was this little boy there, that just happened to get diagnosed with strep throat....not knowing this information i didnt think anything about being around him. well to my dismay....i get strep throat....well on top of strep throat i get a rash.....well apparently this is called scarlet fever!  NEVER in my life have i EVER heard of such a thing let alone experience anything quite like it.  It was by far the WORST thing i have EVER encountered.  I was off work for 1.5 weeks which I probably shouldnt have gone back when i did, but i was bored at home by myself so...i went back.  Well it has been oh lets say a month and a half later and i STILL have spots from the rash.....so here i sit.....really wanting my immune system back!


real bad....like seriously bad!   Because i apparently let something crawl up my nose and die as well cause im getting sick. So not only can i not get any sleep because i have to pee every 2 hrs but now i cant breathe through my nose....GREAT!  Just great! 

But on a happy note, I am having my second baby shower this weekend and i am SUPER excited about it.  I had one last weekend and Alyssa was showered with so much love it was unbelievable. We are way blessed!  Way beyond what we deserve :)

27 weeks

Holy cow I'm almost 7 months. This is crazy talk. I can't believe it has gone by so fast. I mean it really has. I swear it was just yesterday that I found out. And now here we are 27 weeks.


Little miss still doesn't have a name but we are working on it daily. Even Jeremy is bogging his brain to find the perfect name for her :)

Other than that all is good at the Lucas household. I have my first shower in a couple of weeks. So I'll post pics then.

its a ......

GIRL!!!!  we are beyond excited for a little princess in our household. :) Pray for Jeremy, because I have a feeling he is really gonna need it.  Im sure he is going to build her a cage and not let her out til she is 30!  I also know that she is going to have him wrapped around her pretty little finger and all she is gonna have to do is bat her eyelashes and her wish will be his command :)

Over the past two weekends, my mother and i have been making the princess her bedding.  It was ALOT of hard work but I am glad to say that it is done! 

I love it! We also got to take another peek at the princess friday to make sure that she was indeed a she and this we what we got to witness......

She is smiling at us :) it really melted my heart and cant wait to see her face in 16 weeks!   hoping for more like 14.5 weeks but we will see what she decides :)



23 weeks!

Today makes 23 weeks I am so excited to be able to say that I am over half way done 17 to go!! This baby is pretty active after dinner and when I'm laying down for bed. It moves durning the day but boy does it move more in the evenings. Jeremy also has been able to dwelling babe! It was pretty exciting for him to feel what I feel!

Friday we are gonna verify the sex and make sure everything is still on track :) feeling great and Doing great!

You know what

What I'm kinda tried of? People asking when I'm gonna look preggo...like idk I have NEVER been preggo before! That's number one.

Number 2 being rude men, you see I work with probably 20 men yes 20 and like 2 other women! Very small business I work for but thats beside the point, the point is that men are rude, crude and really deserve to be punched!

I don't know if I'm at a more emotional part of this pregnancy or what but these men make me angry quite often and hurt my feelings. No need for details but just maybe a few prayers to be lifted:)

On a happy note though we find out the sex in 3 days....less than 72 hrs oh my excitement!!!

Testing

So I'm trying to blog from my phone and this is a test! I at random times want to blog about something but don't have my computer handy so I'm hoping this is going to work!

What do y'all use to blog from an iPhone?

hip hip hooray!

Tomorrow is 18 weeks. That means 4.5 months.....5.5 more to go....almost half way there until i get to see my bundle of joy!  Right now the "bean" is the size of a sweet potato but we will see what food it changes to tomorrow! I finally can say with 100% certainity that i have felt the baby "kick"!  it was so exciting to finally know!   With me not having an ultrasound early on to see my bean and know that everything is progressing properly I have a lot of expectations for my next visit next week! I will finally be able to see my child...words can not express how excited i am.....CAN NOT!!!

Im feeling pretty good besides me getting sick but its just this time of year not my child!  I have only gain 2 lbs total so Im hoping that my Dr will approve.  I eat like a horse but the weight is just not getting put on...i dont know what the deal is but maybe the Dr will.  I just dont know if it is something i should be concerned about yet or not....anyone have any suggestions....

btw i seriously know like 12 other people that are preggo.....not including myself....next baby boom maybe??

much love

keepin it real...

so i said that i was going to be "keepin it real" with this pregnancy...the good the bad the ugly the pretty...so here is some ugly...

im an irritable ball of mess today...like really...its to the point where if you look at me weird...i might say really ugly thoughts in my head...not out loud...im not that rude....but you should know that they are COMPLETELY going on in my head.  And there is NOTHING i can do about...there arent enough deep breaths that a person could take to help it....its pretty insane.

and when i say insane...you feel insane..like no control... its bad....but this too i hear will pass.

On a better note i go tomorrow for my 15 week check up .... crossing my fingers for good results on the scale :)

Until then.....

14 WEEKS

I cant not believe its been 3 weeks since my last post...I'm sorry!  i know all of you have been awaiting my weekly post....just kidding

How big is baby?: Approx. the size of an navel orange......2 to 3 oz
Weight Gain?: As of Tuesday when i was just 14 weeks there was 1 lb increase.  Hoping to keep that at .5lb to 1 lb a week from now on.  i have 25 weeks to go so i think that will be ok.

Stretch Marks?: Not yet....hoping for none
Maternity Clothes?: not yet...everything still fits just getting a little more snug

Sleep?: Great until i wake up in the middle of the night to go to the restroom

Best moment this week?: hitting 14 weeks! one week down....26 to go! :)
Food Cravings?: everything carbs is appealing...especially pizza! yum yum
Gender?: dont know yet but i have a feeling its a boy....we shall see in 5 weeks :)

Movement? None yet that i know of.  I have felt somethings but not sure if i can quite say it was the baby!
What I miss?: being normal...i feel like im the most irritable i have EVER been. 

Belly Button?: still an inny
Labor Signs?:nope

What I'm looking forward to?: Going to the DR next week :)
Milestone?: 14 weeks

11 weeks 3 days

well baby lucas is officially the size of a plum!  And we are about to be out of the 200 day range to go! whoop whoop.  I really am looking forward to being in the second trimester because i am exhausted all the time.  it really just started last week but im really tired of it already.  I can literally do NOTHING all day and at 3 o'clock im ready for a nap....you would think that i would have ran a damn marathon or something...nope just sitting on my rear end makes me tired! so Im hoping that the next couple of weeks go by fast! 

thought that i would do a survery to keep track of my progess, so here goes nothing

How far along?: 11.3 weeks. .


How big is baby?: Approx. the size of a plum  and approx .5 oz

Weight Gain?: As of Tuesday when i was just 11 weeks there was no weight gain thus far!  Which BTW my Dr. says is great! 

Stretch Marks?: Not yet...as there shouldnt be since i dont have a bump yet!

Maternity Clothes?: not yet...everything still fits with a little room to grow! YAY!

Sleep?: Great until i wake up in the middle of the to do my nightly routine pee

Best moment this week?: hitting 11 weeks...meaning im almost in the second trimester!  whoop whoop

Food Cravings?: I know what i DONT  want....sweets and i mean really sweet things...make me like WHOA nausea! But i could literally eat hot peppers  EVERY.DAY.

Gender?: ????  Dont know yet

Movement? None yet!
What I miss?: being able to drive more than 1 hr without having to stop and pee.  beer. 

Belly Button?: still an inny

Labor Signs?:nope

What I'm looking forward to?: Going to LR this weekend and looking at cribs with my mom!
Milestone?: almost 12 weeks!

10 weeks people...

This post is going to go back to when i was talking about being honest...take it or leave it......hate me or love me......

if you didnt know thats 1/4 of the way done!  hey hey hey!  thats exciting!  we have our first appointment friday and Jeremy and I are pretty excited to see if everything is going as planned!  I believe we have our first ultrasound and get to hear the heartbeat!  This is exciting stuff here! Ill post a picture when I get one!

Another thing, why do people expect you to "look" pregnant when your only 10 weeks....its not 30 its 10.  Now i understand some people show early....apparently im not one of those people so I would appreciate it if everyone would stop making a big deal it and quit trying to rush the bump...i would greatly appreciate it! 

and another thing....since im not 30 weeks .... could you please keep your hands off my stomach...there is nothing to feel! its just weird! 

6 WEEKS = NAUSEA

Well i hate to admit it but im afraid that I  have morning sickness.....this is not fun...nor enjoyable at all...and to top it all off the only thing that really helps is if your constantly shoving crackers down my throat...really people COME ON!! sometimes its not bad but some can really take over you! But hey gotta keep your eyes on the prize.

Speaking of prizes.....i should be rewarded one today....why you might ask....for not running across the office today and smacking someone in the face...thats why! You see I have  ZERO. patience for rude people.  I know I can be rude sometimes.....but I try to catch myself when at all possible!   Well yesterday a lady at my work decided that she wanted to do an old wives tale on me to predict the gender of the baby....it came back a boy....well this particular person in turns says "im sorry" for what you might ask...me to ... well she was sorry because "Girls are way more fun" well anyone that knows me...knows that I love me girly stuff but i would prefer not to put bows and ribbons and dresses and skirts on my child when i just going to the store for some milk...but with baby girls you kinda have to do that stuff and I get it trust me I do but i think for me a boy would be best!  I tried to explain all of this to her.....her reponse..."have fun being peed on" really B****H, i could have crawled out from my skin......

Sorry for the rant and rave but HAPPY 6 WEEKS!

Theres my gold star! :)

6 weeks!

See the big picture

How your baby's growing:

This week's major developments: The nose, mouth, and ears that you'll spend so much time kissing in eight months are beginning to take shape. If you could see into your uterus, you'd find an oversize head and dark spots where your baby's eyes and nostrils are starting to form. His emerging ears are marked by small depressions on the sides of the head, and his arms and legs by protruding buds. His heart is beating about 100 to 160 times a minute — almost twice as fast as yours — and blood is beginning to course through his body. His intestines are developing, and the bud of tissue that will give rise to his lungs has appeared. His pituitary gland is forming, as are the rest of his brain, muscles, and bones. Right now, your baby is a quarter of an inch long, about the size of a lentil.

 

 this is a lentil seed.

Party of 3...

YES PLEASE!! 

Last time i made a post it was about random thoughts/wants/etc...well in that post i had mentioned that i was having a major case of baby fever...little did i know...that i was indeed PREGNANT!  Holy Moly!  This woman is gonna be a MOMMA!  We are super excited....very nervous....anxious....surprised....happy!  If you look to the right....it will tell you how far along i am....and how many many many days are to go! :)

ill try to keep everyone updated with the progress and all of that...my first appt in on my birthday....i get to have the flu shot...happy birthday to me....lol!

until next time!

hello world....

I have been MIA i know...not that anyone has really noticed ... i have...thats all that matters...
its seriously been forever since i blogged and i honestly have ZERO excuses except for that i just got tired of it! not that i did it alot but it seemed like i was forcing it and i dont want that so i have decided that this will be whatever i make it , when i make, and however i like it!

Random things about me
- on any give day i will probably drop the f bomb several times....i should work on that
-i love my husband more today than the day i married him...he has such strength it will surprise you ...it does me everyday
-i dont have any kids...i have a dog that i can/will talk about several times a day...he is my love and i couldnt imagine a day without him
-i am ready to move back to the city...i like this simplicity .... but damn a mall would be great.......
-i have the worst baby fever...its worse now than ever since i get to see 2 newborns every week
- i miss my parents more than i thought that i would ... they really are the greatest things since sliced bread
- Jeremy finally got an iphone....and he is on it more than i am......i have created a monster......
- i play words with friends with my mom....does that make me gay?
- and she kicks my ass everytime...she was a teacher so thats ok right.....
-i will be exhausted all day at work and then i get home and have all kinds of energy that i cant go to sleep....it really is a crazy cycle
-greys-private practice - vampire diaries could really never take a break and i would be completely satisfied every week
- brothers and sisters rocks my socks off
-rachel zoes lips drive me crazy or maybe its the way that only her lips move when she talks....and she seriously should eat something....like soon....coffee cant fuel a genius!
- i cant believe they are letting that guy come back again on the bachlor....will NOT be watching that one....
- i miss fayetteville...
- i regret some friendships i burned while there
- past relationships with guys makes me laugh....
-people keep popping up in my life that i have talked to in years...its kinda weird....but kinda nice
-i have picked out the nursery funiture for when i do have a child....shhh dont tell :)
-i want to trade in my acura for something bigger.....crazy i know....but i do....
-anyone wanna buy it?  just kidding
-i officially feel old...its 10 and all i can think about is how 6 am is going to be coming pretty fast...
- i have weird names for my bed....every comforter is called something else....i think its cute...everyone else laughs
- my friend kim is probably one of the best people i have met in years...love her...couldnt live without her....she is probably one of the strongest people i have met...her strength will shock the shit out of you....seriously

thats all my randomness for today....until next time...whenever that might be...

oh yeah...and when i do get pregant i want to write about everything...the good the bad the ugly....do you think people would judge if i was completely honest about the whole thing....it cant be all roses and candy bars the whole time....someone should tell it to you straight....why not me?